Today is my birthday! Happy Birthday to me! I am 36 years old. I have to say I have never understood why women lie about their age. I suppose it could have something to do with where I am in my life. So let me tell ya…
A few days ago, I had horrible chest pain. Pain that did not go away and did not get any better with rest and medication. It was so bad I was afraid I was having a heart attack. C drove me to the hospital, and they ran a bunch of tests-EKG, stress test, ultrasounds, etc, etc. but it all boiled down to, I was letting things pile up and letting them get to me. I was so stressed out, and worn out that my doctor pretty much ordered me to relax. He said if I didn’t I would wind up there again, and one day I might really have a heart attack, too young. (no he didn’t say those words, but that was the gist of it) He suggested getting a dog (which R already got me, and he is such a sweetie!), continuing to go for walks with him, R and I getting out more alone for fun, reading for pleasure (which I do-reading a fun book now “Unhallowed Ground” by Heather Graham) Knitting, (I said no, but I do really like to cross stitch), and basically just learning to do things for myself and for fun. But most importantly he reminded me that I can’t control everything, and R has been telling me that for years. Let me tell you, right now I have to remind myself to let things go. My ex husband did something that upset me, and rather than going on and on about it, I had to promise myself I would tell R what was up, he and I would BRIEFLY talk about it, and that would be that…I wouldn’t go on and on…and today, I DID IT! I told him what bugged me (took me about 20 seconds), he told me he understood and agreed, I let out a deep breath, and we talked about how cold we were waiting for J’s baseball showcase to be over. It wasn’t easy, it certainly wasn’t second nature, but I hope with time I can do that without having to gear up for it, because it was so much better! I didn’t get all worked up, I didn’t get pissed off, and it didn’t ruin out afternoon! I suppose writing about it here could help as well.
BUT, back to my birthday! C made my birthday cake as he usually does…and I think there was some sort of cave in on one side….but as long as it tastes good. R is making me spaghetti with some fresh garlic (YUMMY!), onions, and mushrooms.
R-Yesterday he took the whole family, yep all five boys, and my sister and my niece to Texas de Brazil at Fair Oaks Mall. So good! At first I thought he was taking us all to the Melting Pot, but he knows that is sort of ‘our place.’ So, this is probably my second favorite place right now. The salad bar is beautiful, very fresh and high quality ingredients, and they have gauchos that bring meat right to your table. You want some chicken, they give you some, steak, pork, lamb. It was wonderful! I had a strawberry mimosa as well. Never had one before, can’t say I was too impressed, but the food was so good. Then he took me to Michael Kors, and I picked out a pair of red driving Moccasins. So comfortable, and I can’t wait to wear them. I didn’t want him to spend too much, so I didn’t tell him that I really liked a purse there, but he knows me and knows I liked it, so he bought me that too. I hope he knows how much I love both my presents, and him taking the time to arrange all of that to suprise me.
C-well, he made my cake! And he stayed up last night to take the puppy out for me, so I could go to bed a bit early as I was really tired for some reason.
J-I think he wanted to buy me a book, unfortunately all of the books I really want I already have, and the cookbook I wanted isn’t out for a few more weeks. BUT, he did get me too cooking magazines-Food Network (My favorite cooking magazine!) and Everyday with Rachael Ray.
A-He made me a lovely card with morning, and he sent me a text with a picture of a birthday cake in it saying I love you mom, happy birthday! It was so nice to get that.
H-The first thing he said to me this morning, even before Good Morning, was Happy Birthday mommy! It was so sweet.
D-he is too little, but he did give me big hugs today, and that is always nice to get from him.
all in all, it was a pretty great birthday weekend! I had my whole family here, I got a pair of shoes I have been wanting for months, an awesome purse to add to my Michael Kors collection, (IMO, they put Coach to shame, and the sales girls there are so sweet!), and tonight I get to have some great pasta (I LOVE SPAGHETTI!) with all my guys, I don’t think it could get much better than this.
