With five kids, I am looking forward to some children-in-law at some point, some grand kids…and as a mother, you just want what is best for your kids, so I am curious what they want for themselves.

When I was younger, I imagined myself married, but it was an ambiguous sort of dream.  I figured I would meet a guy, fall in love, maybe have two kids tops…but I think as you get older, things change.  My first marriage did not work out, but I got two amazing boys out of it, and for that I think it was meant to be.  It made me who I was when I met my husband, and it allowed me to open my heart to him because I knew what I did NOT want.

Even after ten happy years of marriage what you want changes as you grow older.  I thought I wanted to be passionately in love, and I am, but I also realize that being friends with my spouse is important as well.  I don’t just love him, I like him.  I thought I wanted a man to take care of me, to fix my problems for me, to make my life easy, BUT as I got older I realized that sometimes you have to fix them yourself, and R lets me do that.  Don’t get me wrong, if need be he will step in.  He would never let me get hurt, nor let anyone hurt me, but sometimes taking a step back and letting me figure it out on my own is the best thing he can do.

R also taught me that it is ok to not always be in control.  I admit, this isn’t an easy thing for me to do, and I am still learning, but sometimes it is ok to let yourself be vulnerable and just trust that those that love you will have your best interests at heart.