Our hectic lives raising 5 boys!
30 Mar
I have met men that are breast men. I have met men that are butt men, leg men, etc. I even had a friend in high school that was all about the hair a woman had. But I only met one man that was a ‘me’ man. Let me explain:
Most of the time I will look at my husband and see the man that I adore. I can be mad as hell at him, but he is still the man that makes my heart skip a beat, that makes a tear well up in my eye as he plays with our three month old, but every once in awhile I will look at him and think, “I don’t deserve this man.” When I am feeling melancholy or morose, I will turn to my husband and ask him questions whose answers I KNOW will cheer me up.
I believe it was a Thursday, just your average Thursday, and I was sick. I felt horrible. I was sure my head was going to explode, my throat felt like someone had rubbed it raw with heavy duty sandpaper, and I knew I looked the part. I got out of bed, and marched into the bathroom wearing my nursing bra and well worn boy shorts. I did my business and came out of the bathroom to see my husband motioning me over to him. I smiled and walked around to his side of the bed, sat down and leaned over him, waiting to be enveloped in his sleepy warmth. He hugged me too him and rubbed my back, as I felt his hand creeping lower, I turned to him and asked if he was an ass man. His reply: “I’m a you man.” I thought it was sweet at the time, and showed him my appreciation. But later that day, as I was in the kitchen I thought about what he said, and it struck me…that was possibly the sweetest thing he had ever said to me.
Oh, he has told me he loved me many times…and I hold every single time dearly. He has told me I was beautiful, that I was smart, powerful, etc. But in that one short sentence he said all of that and more. He told me he loved me, that I was smart, that I was beautiful, but also that he accepted my faults, and dealt with them as best he could. He told me he remembered our past and was looking forward to our future. He was a “me” man.
I hope he knows “I’m a him woman.”
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